As of now I have not yet experienced to carry a child to my womb. But you know what? I already felt it. It’s really hard to be pregnant in times of troubles and problems. My sister experienced it. On that time, she had to move away from us because my mom didn’t want to see her. It’s emotionally hurting. I know how she feels, how they feels. Mom is hurting too. But I knew her. She will never show her weaknesses to others. On the other side, Ate is hurting. She is emotional because she is pregnant. That’s why I just supported her.
I tried to make her smile every day I’m going to their home. Yes, I’m visiting them without mom knowing it. I’m bringing her a piece of mango every day, or sometimes oranges, or an apple. I want her to be healthy for the sake of the baby, too. It’s really happy to think that in that way, we became closer and closer to each other. Almost all the time her husband was on his work. That’s why I’m the one coming with her at the maternal clinic every schedule. I felt excitement when I saw the baby’s first picture! The doctor told us there that it was a girl. She’s pretty. I knew it! =)
She’s seven months on her mother’s womb when Ate took steps on the stage to get her diploma. Yes, she did continue studying to finish her course. It’s not our mom who walked with her but our aunt. Thanks to our lovable auntie because she helped us to convince mom to let Ate live with us again. I know she can’t ignore it. Why? Because she do loves us, Very much indeed. Dramatic scenario when the entire member of the family cried. That was a happy night to remember, when our family from being broken unite as one again. And that, there is one little angel will be added to the family.
The next day they came home. Ate was sick and tired. I bet she got to confine. It might be a serious illness like the doctor told them before they leave. She can’t even take care of Wynes. That’s why I’m helping my mom to fix things needed for our angel. And as time goes by, by God’s will, we became okay and the family became big and happy. Now Wynes is one! And until now, I am one of her so called moms. She’s always calling me. She wants to come with me whenever i’m going to school. She wants me to be with her whenever they’re going somewhere.
I almost live at their house because she wants me to sing a lullaby for her at her sleeping time. But ask me about the feeling. It’s very happy to be with her EVERY MOMENT. I’m not her mom, but I can feel she is mine. She is my pain reliever, stress reliever and my happiness. She makes me smile though I’m not well. She makes me smile thru bad times. I’m not a mom. But Wynes let me experience and feel it. I also don’t believe in eternal love, I never before. But as of now, I just realize that aside from God’s eternal love for us, there is another one. And it is the love of a mother to her child. =)